Well, that was terrible, but it seems to be over.
I’ve had patches of giddy excitement and happiness. While I was barking my brain was depressed. I don’t mean I was sad, per se, but sluggish of brain. I couldn’t get excited or happy, I was just mentally weary and wanted to sleep. That’s another indicator, while I was loony I could (happily) nap all day and then sleep at night. Since I’ve got better my brain is whirring and I find it hard to sleep at night again.
Also I’ve been looking, with intent, at bikes again. I even bid on one. The price went up slightly more than I was willing to pay, but I was in the game.
I’ve had no problem motivating myself to go for runs and such. No more than my usual reluctance, anyway.
It took 4 weeks. Worse than the 3 weeks I was expecting, but less than the 6 weeks the doctor said it could take. I’m just glad it worked. That was bloody horrible.
In other news, I’ve had a letter from the heart people since November (about fitting a monitor to catch and diagnose a tachycardia event). I thought it said if they hadn’t contacted me by the 6th of January to ring them. I looked again, and it was actually the 1st of January, so I gave them a call. They were very reluctant to answer, but when I finally got through they said the letter I’d been sent was out of date, the waiting time is now around six months. While I was on the line she said she’d have a look to see if there had been any cancellations. She said it would probably be Halton hospital, as that was the busiest. She found one! This Thursday, at Warrington! How cool is that? My day off, 4 months early, and 2 miles away. Brilliant.
I’ll get it fitted, guzzle some coffee, then go for a sprint. That should do the trick. I was worried about returning it after a few days (not sure when) but they said I can get someone else to do it. So if I’m working, Wendy can drop it off.
Hopefully once they’ve got the data they can book me in to have the dodgy part of my heart fried, then I should be fixed. That would be such a massive improvement in my life. Then I could see about getting back on my sub 3 marathon quest, and get back to muay thai.
And the fact that I am excited and optimistic and already making plans is further proof I’m back on the sanity express.
Things are really, really looking up.